dreaming

Well Since my last post life has goten quite busy. Choas rules me. Marige is fallig to bits n pieces and I am trying to give a shit!

I love him, I do.... BUT ... why is there always a BUT... But, I have found new cluse to him, I don't like what I have learned. I wish I had learned he was cheating on me, that I cold get over!  THAT I could almost understand... I wish I could get my mind wrapped around this...

Anyways, I digress.... I am still plagued by the hotness of the men surrounding me ... I still can not touch them... but dayum I can dream... and dream I do! At least in my dreams I am treated well. Respected and most importantly (of course) Obeyed! LOL!

Seriously tho. If I do indeed decided to make a break for it, I do believe I will be ok! I am almost at piece with this decision.... almost LOL! how does one become completely ok with admitting defeat??That is something I must work on..

While I work I will continue to dream LOL! Hope these men never stop flirting with me, I do so enjoy the flattery LOL! Flattery will get you everywhere they say.